This has actually been a good day. my first good day in I cant even remember how long. The past month has inclosed some of the worst times, experiences and feelings I've had..ever. There have been times where I have come home from school and just bawled. I've never done that before. Or I have really felt like I didnt belong where I was. Like I was dyyinggg to get high school over with and move on to college. I'm not normally like that. My heart ached. I've never had that feeling before. I tried to mask it but that didnt really work out that well. One of my teachers even called my house because she was worried about me. I was exhausted. Dont get me wrong, there were many good things that happened in those times too, and I also learned some amazing things. But today was a new day. It was good. I went to Campaigners this morning, school was easy, lacrosse was fun, I didnt have any stress and I found out some amazing news. I dont have any homework, I'm in bed at 8, and I'm excited for our field trip tomorrow. Life is swell.
Today also the first day of Lent. This year, instead of giving up or taking on one big thing, I've kinda thrown some little stuff together. I'm giving up scrolling or looking down the newsfeed on facebook. I'm going to finish one book of the bible. Also, my grandmother gave me a book called Writing to GOD; 40 days of praying with my pen. Which I am actually going to start right after I finish writing this. Im excited because I need some change in my life. I need some discipline. I need to switch it up. Ive finished. Im starting again.
