I'm a hoarder, a hoarder of love.

So, i love alot of people. i really do. but sometimes my own mind gets in the way. when you first see someone its really hard not to focus on their appearence. i mean, thats the first thing you see. i know for me, all day i am constantly looking at others and comparing them or labeling them or judging them. not judging is a huge thing i have to work on. the beginning of chapter seven of matthew is all about how we are not to judge. the bible says "do not judge, or you too will be judged. for the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." i wonder ALL the time about what people are thinking about me.and some things im sure i do not want to know. i can tell people judge me, because well, we are all people. and doesnt really bother me. theres part of me that doesnt care what people think of me. but theres also a part that does. one of my favorite verses says dont conform any longer to the pattern of this world. i have learned a lot this year about not wanting to be part of this world. ive come to accept that we are different from everyone else. and i like that. i like that a lot